One of my goals/resolutions for 2010 was to lose weight along with getting my money and budget under control. Well I have been doing great in the money department. Hubby and I have put everything into an excel spreadsheet and for the first time ever we have been on a budget. I am very proud and happy.
But...
In the losing weight department there has been absolutely no progress. And this is because I have not done anything to lose weight or get healthy. I have to be honest it is really frustrating. It is frustrating that for some reason I can not make this a priority. I can not convince my brain to make the right choice. I want to make the right food choices, I want to work out, I want to be healthier but I don't. I think about it everyday.
My hubby gets mad when I say that I am fat. Because of course he says I am not. But really what is he going to say. I mean I am not obese but I am definitely overweight. When hubby and I first met I was 118 and now I am 175. Wow! Just writing those numbers is shocking to me. So yes I am fat.
This week in a couple different situations I was reminded why I am fat and other people are not.
For example, I went out to lunch with one of my colleagues and this is what he had for lunch:
Healthy Salad with grilled chicken
Now he is in great shape. And I am sure this is one of the reasons why. Because he makes healthy food choices.
Now this is what I got:
Chicken fingers and french fries
Obviously this is not a healthy choice. And this is just one example. I am sure I can give a million more.
But what is weird, at least to me, is I do not think about this bad choice until after the fact. Meaning after I scarf it down. So I need to work on mentally preparing myself to start making healthy food choice no matter where I am.
Here is another example of why I am fat and some are not. I have a girlfriend that the first thing she does in the morning is this:
Runs on the treadmill
And this is what I do:
I get up, grab my coffee, and sit on the computer for an hour checking facebook, reading all of your blogs, checking my blog stats, checking facebook again, then go get ready for work.
And the funny thing is I have a brand new treadmill in my basement that has been down there for two years.
So where am I going with this besides making my self feel more depressed. Well I want to make a change. I really do. I just need to figure out how I am going to do this.
The first this I thought about is why. Why do I even want to lose weight and get healthy?
This is what I came up with:
- I want to make my health a priority. I know I am not getting younger and sooner or later my unhealthy choices will catch up with me.
- I want to feel sexier. I want to be a smokin hot mama. There are days I feel sexy but there are many days I do not. I don't want my weight to be a cause for my feelings of unsexiness.
- I want to be a better mommy. There are days I am totally exhausted and feel so run down. And I know a lot of it is because I am carrying extra weight on me. By shedding some of these pounds I would have so much more energy to keep up with my divas.
- I want to wear a bathing suit this summer. I have not worn a bathing suit in easily 7-8 years. I have even bought one since then. My kids want to go to the beach and I want to take them.
- I want to wear cute summer clothes. I am sick of stretchy waist gaucho pants.
- I want to be able to work it 100%! I have spent so much time focusing on my kids, hubby, work, and even my hobbies that I have totally neglected myself. And for me to be able to work it like I want to I need to focus on me. Because I truly feel that is you are in balance then everything else around will be as well.
So how am I going to do this. I don't know yet. Not the answer you expected I am sure. But I need a plan. I need to put together a healthy living plan for myself. Just like I took control over my finances I need to do the same with my health. I will be working on this plan in the next week and be sharing it as soon as it is done.
I know many of you can completely relate to this. Right?
But don't worry Mama's we are in it together. We are going to become the smokin hot mama's that we all deserve to be!
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You go girl! You will get there! I too, was 118 when I got married, and I, too have a treadmill in my basement that is collecting dust! And of course right now I’m eating breakfast and reading blogs instead of hopping on it!!
I absolutely hate to work out. HATE IT. Hate it. Did I say I hate it? Therefore, I never do it. Ugh. I do tend to eat fairly healthy b/c I can’t eat gluten so I can’t eat a lot of the fried foods that are out there and I can’t eat out b/c there aren’t a lot of options out there for people with my dietary needs. So, I am thin, but not fit. My stomach is flabby and not toned AT ALL. I wish I like working out, but I don’t. I’m in my mid-thirties, so if I haven’t learned to like it yet, I probably won’t!
Hey… don’t be too hard on yourself. You are a MOM right….you’ve got a million things going on at once.
If I had to get on the “dreadmill” in the mornings I would quit!
I currently belong to Planet Fitness in town and I go in the evenings. It works out much better for me than mornings do.
Because I’m like you.
When I get up…I Pee, Grab coffee then sit down at the computer and check everything while I wake up.
I had to find a time that was good for ME and I’m finding that, that is really helping me stick to it.
And a bonus for me, is….the more I walk on the dreadmill, the healthier choices I make when it comes time to EAT something…because I don’t want to screw up my walk. LOL
You can do it girl! You really have to be in the right mindset! I put myself out there on my blog so I am accountable. It helps that I have so many cheerleaders cheering me on. It helps me make the right choices. I am 5’3″ and was 172 a couple years ago. In 5 months I took off 32 pounds…of course I gained about 20 back and that is why I am working on losing that (again). I will be your cheerleader! You can do it!
Thanks Ladies!! You are awesome! I think I am going to do a weigh in every week. We shall see. But thanks for the encouragement!
It is an ongoing battle for me too. Good luck to you!
I so know what you mean – my get up and go got up and left a while back. I think I just have to grit my teeth and MAKE myself get my fat butt on the elliptical machine while I watch my fav tv show, until it becomes something I do automatically. And I wait til everyone else has ordered (pretend I can’t decide) and their choices usually remind me to be healthy. Hang in there, and Happy SITS Sharefest!
Don’t be so hard on yourself…I am in the same boat. I need to shed some pounds now that baby girl is 16 months and there is NO excuse. And it IS the hardest damn thing in the world!
Hang in there sista, you are not alone!
O.M.G…are we twins? It’s like you crawled in my head and echoed all my own weight loss laments, fears, thoughts. This is the best post I have read in a long time. Good job Mommy! You are my inspriration!
I can so relate to this. I need to get healthier. Heart disease runs in my family. I keep telling myself I have to do it, but I put so much energy into everything else, there’s nothing left for me. We moved the treadmill into the living room thinking we could get on it while watching tv. This has not worked. Yesterday, I sat in front of the tv and was looking at the treadmill and thought, I keep saying I’m going to start, well today is the day. I actually worked out! I also had an orange instead of chips later when I wanted a snack. I fell off the snack wagon today, but I’ve decided not to beat myself up. Change is a painful process and I am determined to do it, one baby step at a time if need be.
OH I HEAR YOU SISTA!
I can relate to everything you said and getting in shape is one of my goals this year too.
I am actually reading Secrets of a former fat girl by Lisa Delaney and its so inspiring very different from all the other diet/weightloss books because she talks about her experience and its so inspiring that i have started working out with a friend and together We ARE going to get in shape!
You Can do it and you WILL do it and we can all do this together!
This was an incredible post. Came to say hi from MBC, and loved it!!! Waving and smiling here. Thanks for the candid thoughts and sharing. I SO hear you, Mama. Absolutely 100%!
I feel your pain! I lost thirty pounds while I was in the hospital on a no salt, low sodium, heart-healthy diet. When I got home, I gained back 10 lbs.. So I am doing that again bc it was easy: I still pretty much ate what I wanted and just kept the sodium under 2300 mg a day. Of course the threat of death kind of helped too. :/ Thanks for stopping by my blog today.
I don’t know if someone else wrote this already, but try making a meal plan..even just the morning of, or maybe the night before. You can look menus up online to plan what you’re going to order. If you’re lost as to how to start one, I suggest you seek out a local registered dietitian to help you! Good luck!
Hey girl good for you for wanting to get healthy! This is not an easy thing to do, for it takes an entire lifestyle change. But it doesn’t necessarily mean you have to be the person who wakes up and goes straight to the treadmill (I know I don’t, I much prefer your morning routine of coffee and computer)…but it does mean changing things up. May I suggest ‘getting healthy the way your kids do?’ something I keep meaning to put into writing but instead the ideas are floating through my head…basically, think like a kid when it comes to exercise and snacks, little bits at a time. I have VERY active little ones so as long as it’s not raining, snowing, or freezing we do lots walks through the neighborhood, playing at the park, malls if it’s too cold outside…we stay busy, and at home I often get silly with them, rolling around on the floor! You will burn some calories and spend time with your kids all at the same time! And eat like them too: my kids are constantly eating but only handfulls at a time, and I usually pay close attention to what I feed them (versus just shoving whatever I can find into my mouth to feed myself) so you know it’s a healthier choice!
Good luck with your journey I know you can do it!
Let me know if you need anymore encouragement!
You can do it! I promise you can! Since August I have lost 55 pounds, and if I can do it. ANYONE can! I have a “weight loss wednesday” on my blog. Feel free to come visit
ooh, have you seen the ‘jell-o singles pudding packets’? They have them in sugar free and you mix with fat free milk…I love those for late night, I always have to have something sweet and these totally do it but without all the calories!
Ever since becoming a mom I have found that I focus more on my children eating healthy than on me. I make sure they eat fruit and lean meats, while I scarf down carbs and a diet soda…! So I have decided to change my mind, like you said, which isn’t easy. I post messages to the mirror and fridge that say things like EAT FRUIT! or have the portions of my favorite foods on it. Then, after eating a meal I say outloud: the next thing I eat will be fruit. I try to challenge myself that way and see if I can stick to it. Doesn’t always work, but this is a hard habit to break, so you can’t be too hard on yourself! Just take it slow. Like many have said, We’re all in this together!
I have a similar goal, but luckily my current profession forces me to be active. I’m keeping track of my success/failures in my Tight Tush Tuesday posts
If you can find time to start exercising, you’ll start eating better. At least, that’s what works for me. Once I start exercising, my body starts to feel better. Once my body begins to feel yummy, I start treating it better with healthier foods.
When I try to eat better and then exercise I always give up because I don’t think/feel like I’m eating enough to fuel my workouts. I know, I’m a head case.
Good luck!
I’m your newest follower from Friday Follow. I had to check out this post because anything with the word FAT in the title immediately catches my attention. I’ve been investigating cellulite for too long, I suppose
Good luck with your resolutions. We’d love to have your help in cracking the cellulite case, if you’re up for it!
hi there hot mama!
Sorry if I’ll be scattering comments on your blog. I’ve been backreading
I am only 23 yrs old and been fighting with weight issues since grade school. Want to blame it on depo shots I had for a year, but then i realized, it’s me who could not find time for myself. I guess, we are just both lucky our partners don’t mind what size we fit in (hubby is also a big guy hehe) but I do hope you stay healthy. If your heart is really into the working out, call me I’LL CHEER FOR YAH!!! 
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